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[23 Apr 2007|09:20pm] |
So I made a new lj...when I made this one, I didn't think I'd have the name for like 4 years and it was just supposed to be a joke, but I got sick of it a long time ago.
Plus I wanna start over without having to go delete all the junk on this one, sooooo go add my new one to your friendslist so we can keep mutually spying on each other <3
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) xoxolust
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| Ugh. |
[20 Apr 2007|11:53am] |
So last night I was supposed to go to Kelly O's for Sara's birthday but I never made it there. I came home to get changed (haha the amount of stuff I spill on myself now that I have this belly in front of me is hysterical) and then I figured I should call her to see if she was even still there but she didn't answer. But I kinda figured by that point they had probably moved on to somewhere else anyways and she probably wouldn't be able to hear her phone. Boo. I hate missing birthdays. I always feel so bad. I bought her a flower so I have to try to get that to her today so it doesn't die. Man flowers die so fast. Stupid flowers.
Then this morning I wake up and the horrible, terrible, makes me want to cry side pain I had a few months ago on the right side has now decided to kick in on my left side. WOO! I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS! The only thing that really makes it feel better is taking my fist and pushing it into my side/back. Oh, and time. Last time it lasted about a month...
And now I get to go to work and be stuck at the mall for 5 hours...but I can't really complain about that because I need the money. I'm basically at the point right now where I will take any shift that needs to be taken, because I just really need to be able to afford baby stuff. I'm really stressed out about that right now...it's coming up soon and I still have to buy so many things and I just don't see how it's going to be possible.
I want to go back to bed :(
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[09 Apr 2007|06:46pm] |
Sara said she'd beat me if I deleted tummy pictures without posting them first. And she's mean so she'll do it! I tried not to take anymore, but I failed. Bite me, I love taking pictures of it. Besides, it's been a few days sooooo, shut up.
<3<3<3<3
28w
Only 12w to go
Or 84 days.
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| Hehehe |
[08 Apr 2007|10:27pm] |
I got bored. So I started drawing crap. And then I started drawing more crap. And then I dunno. So I made Sara a present. Here you go Sara, just cuz I love you and I know you love her sooooo much...
Dora the Crackwhore!
With her trusty purple backpack full of condoms, lube, and "personal cleansing cloths"...cuz our Dora may be a whore, but at least she cleans her snatch.
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[08 Apr 2007|11:49am] |
My aunt Jackie arrived in town yesterday. Well, actually she's my step dad's sister so not really my aunt, but...yeah. We all had dinner at my parents last night and then my step brother and his girlfriend showed up and stayed for a bit. My brother is insane. He was bouncing around the car the entire drive home, jumping all over the place, telling me the babies middle name should be David because "You're only brother's name is David!" ...actually my brothers names are Garrett and Brendan, and my step brothers name is David but ooook. haha. I swear he either has ADD or he's on speed.
All my money from my pay cheque from the kiosk went to rent, which sucks. I wanna buy baby stuff dammit. And still no word from that other chick. What the fuck is her problem? I hate people sometimes.
I have nothing to say! We went book shopping the other day and got a bunch of new books and...that's about it. I'm so boring. I'm going to go do something exciting so I can write about it.
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| Ugh. |
[04 Apr 2007|11:27am] |
I dreamed I got married and it was such a horrible dream. I woke up feeling all weird and uncomfortable. What's up with that? Man, it was just so strange. I don't know who I was marrying, it was kind of one of those people that's a compilation of various ex boyfriends and stuff and nothing was going right. And after it was all over I had this feeling like, I just made the biggest mistake of my life. I just felt really empty inside. Ugh, I feel really weird and gross right now, what a shitty dream.
Ew and I can't believe it kept me asleep so long. It's almost noon. Fuck that sucks to waste a day on such a crappy dream.
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| Sometimes people really annoy me |
[02 Apr 2007|01:44pm] |
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So I was babysitting for this chick who used to work with my sister and then she lost her job (the mom, not my sister, my sister is like the highest earner at her company, she's not going anywhere) so she said she was looking for a new job and that she'd call me when she had one cuz she'd need me to babysit again. Plus she said she'd call me on Friday (this past one) so we could arrange for her to pay me what she owes me, since I have to pay rent and all. So the family doesn't really have a vehicle and I know getting around is hard for her and stuff because of that so I'm trying to be understanding and patient and stuff, but I've been trying to get ahold of her all weekend and each time it just goes straight to voice mail and I just tried again and now her outgoing message is basically "I'm still out of town because of a family emergency (!?!?) I'll be back on April 15th (!?!?) leave a message and I'll get back to you." Ok yeah I hope everything is ok with her and her family, but hello? She knows she owes me money, which I need to pay my rent (yes, which is already late, Crystal covered it and I owe her. Thank god for family but what if I didn't have that help and I was totally screwed?) and I have a baby on the way which I need to buy so many things for still, the least she could do is give me a quick call, hell even leave me a message. I'm a fairly understanding person in situations that involve actual problems, but I don't appreciate this feeling like she's avoiding me crap. Hell even if it's a case of she just lost her job and can't afford to pay me right now, that sucks but just tell me so we can make arrangements and figure it out and at least I'd know where we're at.
Grrrr.
It's stressing me out and stress isn't really what I need right now. And Crystal (understandably) keeps asking me if I've heard anything yet and it sucks to have to keep telling her that no I haven't.
And now I have to head out to work cuz...I have to work. haha. Yeah.
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| Make me stop! |
[31 Mar 2007|01:00am] |
Technically since it's past midnight it's tomorrow, even though I haven't gone to bed yet so it's still really today...or something like that. Basically what I'm trying to say is that no I'm not writing in here twice in one day...even though I really am.
Huh?
So. I have to stop taking pictures of my tummy. Because I'm seriously really obsessed. So I'm not allowed to take pictures of it until like...later. When it actually looks different. I seriously think I need help. Is there like, Pregnant Tummy Pictures Anonymous or something that I can join? Because I think I need to go there.
So yeah, if you catch me taking pictures of my tummy, then slap me please. Not that most of you will know...or be close enough to catch me doing it...except maybe Sara. I think she lives in my closet and watches me sleep. And I'm pretty sure she touches me in the middle of the night. I'm not sure exactly how she lives in my closet since I never close the door, but she's little so I'm pretty sure she's just perched up on the shelf there in the corner somewhere.
I honestly have no clue what I'm talking about. But I really like the idea of having a little person in my closet now so I'm gonna go and...sleep or...something that makes me less insane. Sounds like a plan.
xoxo
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| Really loud children |
[30 Mar 2007|05:33pm] |
This is my bad parenting rant of the day: I can't stand listening to other peoples children sometimes. The kids outside my parents place are playing and they're screaming and yelling and just being ridiculously loud. Yeah yeah yeah, I get it, they're kids, they play. But there's no need for them to be quite so loud. When I was a kid my parents taught me that you don't scream unless there is a reason to. Why the hell can't other parents teach their children the same thing? Not that long ago I was leaving a parking lot and a family was walking with their little girl and she kept screaming every few seconds. They seemed to think this was just so funny and they were all laughing, meanwhile, I'm slamming on the brakes every time she does it because instinctively I worry that maybe something is wrong, like maybe I hit her or someone else. And no I don't mean just normal playful screams either, I mean like actual horror movie "Help" style screaming. Then of course when I had enough and stopped the car to inform the parents (in child safe language) that they were assholes and should teach their child that screaming like that for no reason (especially in public where other people have to listen to you) is really fucking stupid and rude, they act like there was something wrong with me and pulled the whole "Mind your own business" bullshit. Uhm excuse me but it became my business when your fucking kid assaulted my ears with their god damn screaming.
I dunno, am I just an asshole? Probably. It just seems stupid to me.
I'm reading The Secret right now. It was annoyingly hard to find. There were like 6 copies in Chapters and all of them were reserved for someone else and every other bookstore we checked was out. Finally I just decided to drive to Vernon and check Coles Books there. And they had tons of copies. Like a whole shelf full. So since everyone I know seems to be looking for it I promised the guy there that I would point them all in his direction. I've started this thing where every time I finish a book I really like, I pass it on to my mom and make her read it too. Right now she's in the middle of the last one I gave her (Way of the Peaceful Warrior which someone else told me to read, and which, well just read it k? If you like to read at all, read this book, it makes a lot of things make sense) and hopefully we'll both finish reading around the same time so I can pass this one on. It probably won't happen though because I read a lot faster than anyone else in my family. Although I guess it doesn't matter if I finish reading first I guess...as long as she doesn't finish first...I'm rambling now.
Peter and I were talking about a bunch of business related stuff last night. We've developed this habit of playing internet Backgammon pretty much every night. And we don't even suck at it anymore! The first time we played neither of us knew how, but now we're actually figuring it out and last night I so kicked his ass 3 games in a row. Go me! Go me! Backgammon champion! But yeah, while playing we get to talk about website plans and photography stuff and all that junk. I can't wait to actually get to start working again. Ah I miss it. I can't wait to bring Kyshia there again so I can actually help this time. Last time I was in so much pain I just napped upstairs with the puppies and Sam the cat who loves sniffing my boobs while Peter and Kyshia shot pictures.
Oh and in baby related stuff, I had to get blood taken today and drink that orange drink everyone talks about. It...really wasn't that bad. It kind of just tasted like a melted orange slurpee. I don't know. I was expecting it to be bad because everyone said how horrible it was...but I kind of liked it. haha. The guy said I had 5 minutes to drink it all and I chugged it in about 30 seconds. If all baby related "horrible" things are this easy then child birth is going to be a breeze. Haha KIDDING! Geeze, I know it's going to be pure hell and I'm going to be screaming the entire time. See but at least I pick appropriate times to scream.
xoxo
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| Boring Boring Boring |
[28 Mar 2007|04:10pm] |
I wish I had something interesting to say. Especially when I look back at old journal entries and at how interesting and eventful my life used to be...but I have nothing to say cuz I do nothing. I'M SO BORED! And the few things I do actually do, I can't exactly talk about because they're all secret and sneaky and not to be shared with anyone...AHHH! It's driving me nuts. There isn't even exciting baby stuff going on right now to tell anyone. Just kicking a lot and thats about it.
Someone needs to entertain me or something so I don't go crazy.
k I'm gonna go sit in my room and listen to AFI & Panic! At the Disco and go through boxes and throw stuff out and clean and all that stuff. That whole "nesting" thing pregnant women talk about is starting to kick in, but sadly it seems to hit really hard at 3 in the morning when I'm trying to sleep. Then when I'm actually awake and able to do anything it fades away and I just get really sleepy and I just want to nap.
ENTERTAIN ME!!!!!!!
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| I am so productive. |
[25 Mar 2007|03:52pm] |
Worked from 10-2 today. SUCH A SLOW DAY! Sold like one thing. It was so sad. Got hit on by some guy who used the fact that he had a kid and I have one on the way as his pickup line. Yeah, no.
We have a kid sized stool at the kiosk and kids often run up, grab it and then run away with it. Sara warned me this would happen, but she didn't mention how often. I had 5 different kids take it today. Five. It's adorable but today a little girl topped them all, she walked up with her mom and her big sister, looked at the stool, looked at me, and asked "Where did you buy that?" Seriously she was about 2, maybe 3. Such an odd question for a child to ask. Usually if they ask anything about it it's either "Can I have that?" or sometimes "Who's is that?" which usually means they're about to steal it because if it's not anyone elses, it must be theirs. If I say it's mine, then they ask if they can have it.
Finally finally finally cleaned my car out. My car is happy. I forgot how huge my trunk is. It's massive. We've put people in there before. Jamie once demanded we let him ride in the trunk, but we wouldn't let him because I think we knew we wouldn't be able to get him out of it. But seriously, you can fit two guys in there at least. I found a hat and I don't know who it belongs to. I'm always finding hats and I never know who I took them from. It's kind of sad. I have a problem I think.
I have until Thursday off from babysitting. Which is nice but will also be boring as hell. I work at the kiosk tomorrow I think...I don't remember what hours. But yeah.
I have nothing else to say cuz I really didn't do much of anything. I'm boring. Yay me :D
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| HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA |
[24 Mar 2007|10:04pm] |
I love Kyshia.
So I go bug her at work today and she tells me the Funniest Story Ever. Apparently on the weekend she was in the liquor store where Connor works and they got to talking (they hadn't met before) and eventually exchanged numbers. haha NICE! Then she was looking at it and she was like, "Where do I know that name?" hahaha oh man. So yeah later she went back in for more booze and she was like, "You know who I am? ...yeah Ang is my best friend." HAHA. Omg. Kyshia is the greatest. And Connor is dumb as hell. I'm so amused.
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| New Tummy Pic |
[22 Mar 2007|07:04pm] |
<3<3<3<3
25w3d
Only 14w4d to go
Or 102 days
OR approx 3.5 months
ACK!
I have nothing interesting to say.
I'm going to go read.
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[20 Mar 2007|09:20pm] |
Bree & I went to see Music & Lyrics today. It was cute. Drew Barrymore can't act worth shit, although I didn't mind her this time cuz she somehow managed to be kinda loveable. And Hugh Grant is so awesome that he pretty much just carried the entire movie and made it good. Love him. Love Bree describing him as "cheeky" even more.
I did not however like the creepy other lyricist guy (if you've seen it you'll know who I mean) total cheap lame Jack Black wannabe. Bree and I agreed, every single shot he was in looked like it had been meant for Jack Black.
I heart Bree. She's pretty and fun and her road is bumpy so it feels like a rollercoaster.
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| Betty White just said cock ring |
[17 Mar 2007|10:25pm] |
We're watching the roast of William Shatner on the Comedy channel, and Betty White just said cock ring.
I can die happy now.
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| Kyshia's photoshoot |
[14 Mar 2007|04:55pm] |
Kyshia had so much fun taking pics with Peter the other night. I've seen some of them already and she looks fucking hot. <3 I haven't however seen the ones he took after they were done shooting, he wanted to take some normal CLOTHED ones of her and she dragged me into the shot so she could take pics with the belly and basically put me in a headlock and force me to love her. haha. It was cute but omg I had just woken up from a freakin nap and was not really in spontaneous photoshoot mood. haha. But oh well. I heart her so it's all good, and the pictures will be cute because it was basically just us laughing hysterically for 15 minutes or so (we saw the little tiny sample ones and they were kind of adorable)
...uhm...yah I have nothing else to say, we're just running out the door now and I have to go brush my teeth. YAY TEETH BRUSHING!
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| Heading to Kamloops! |
[11 Mar 2007|11:17am] |
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Kyshia and I are heading to Kamloops. If she ever gets up and showered and ready that is...SLACKER!!!!! hehe. I'm gonna just go to her house and stick a finger in her bum if she takes too long.
I'm watching old Britney Spears music videos on Youtube right now. God I love that crazy bitch. And now that Avril Lavigne is being all like how Britney used to be, I love her too. "Girlfriend" is fucking ADDICTIVE! Man sometimes this kinda shit is all I really wanna listen to. Sure it's nice to listen to something with substance, but sometimes I just want mindless entertainment. And this shit is so perfect for that. Plus it's fun to sing along to cuz even if you suck, you don't feel bad cuz so do they! haha. No wonder all those weirdos on American Idol think they're good singers!
I want a pink ipod but I can't find the energy or the motivation to go into the store and buy it. And if I go because I happen to be going to get other stuff, I'll forget and not remember until I get home. I need a personal shopper or something. At least until the baby comes and I get my brain back.
Hmmm...I have nothing to say. I'm so so so so boring.
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| More Tummy! |
[07 Mar 2007|07:51pm] |
It looks bigger to me. haha.
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| Yay birthday that didn't suck |
[07 Mar 2007|04:14pm] |
So my birthday was probably the best birthday I ever had, which is kind of sad since we really didn't do anything. Crystal, Tasha, Kyshia, Pierce (Kyshia's little brother) and I went out for dinner. Bree, Sara & Raven all had to work, Nicky wasn't feeling good and I didn't invite anyone else because inviting involves planning and details and all that crap and I couldn't bother to waste time with all that junk. Plus, having too many people is shitty cuz then it's not as easy for everyone to talk. Sooo...we were gonna go to Kelly O's but we got there and they said we needed a reservation. Ha. Ooookay. For 5 people on a Monday night? You're dumb. haha. So we went to Boston Pizza instead. Better service. Great food. And the place was fairly empty so we could be as loud as we wanted. Pefect. No one even drank and we were still laughing our asses off the entire time. Other than that it was fairly uneventful. Which was perfect considering my past birthday experiences. So yay for friends. :)
Ooooh plus my sister got me awesome Kurt Cobain stuff and I loves it so much.
I'm kinda moody right now...the closer it gets to baby time the more annoyed I get about the fact that baby isn't going to have his or her own room. I keep seeing pics of nurseries posted by other mommies and it's making me all depressed. :( I didn't realize how much it would bug me, or else obviously I wouldn't have even moved into this place to begin with, but it's really starting to make me sad. I wish there was another bedroom. :(
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